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Candice Wendt's avatar

What a wonderful issue. Kameron, I love how you shared your visits to communities with female leaders and who are more mindful and loving toward queer communities and racialized people. This is a beautiful piece. And Ashleigh, this piece is amazing. I love how you courageously shared about your dad's mental illness, how it affected you and how your realized there were comparable patterns in your religious experience. So many of us probably have similar dynamics where mental illness in our families plays with what's going on with faith, I know I do. It's so important to discuss this. I'm 1000% percent on board with discarding polygamy as a non-divine mistake but still trusting in the good things Joseph recorded and did according to our own discernment and what the spirit testifies of. Once thing that makes me feel supported in this is that when I look at inspired historical figures apart from Joseph Smith with great minds and hearts, I see that many of them made the mistake of deceiving themselves and justifying betraying their partners and being with multiple women or abusing women. I'm including both spiritual leaders and great writers here. Thomas Hardy, Martin Luther King Jr., Karl Barth, the prophet Mohamed, Charles Dickens, Gandhi, and many others. Many of these men eventually saw what they did as tragedy and a blight on their lives, there is some evidence that even Joseph Smith came to this conclusion (see https://www.dialoguejournal.com/articles/the-psychology-of-religious-genius-joseph-smith-and-the-origins-of-new-religious-movements/) When I read Mormon Enigma (the definitive scholarly biography of Emma Smith written by two women), it's clear to me that what was going on was very psychologically unhealthy and abusive, yet also at the same time, that the earlier experiences Joseph had were authentic and he was honest about them. Larry Foster, an expert in Joseph Smith's polygamy says he doesn't think even Joseph himself understood what was going on and what his true motivation was. If you ask me, he was probably emotionally and relationally sick and had an intimacy disorder. People can develop compulsive behaviors driven by self-deception due to their psychological wounds. He didn't face his shadow, and neither have we as a people. None of this would mean he couldn't have been a prophet.

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Kameron Abilla's avatar

Thank you for sharing my piece and for anyone reading it :) grateful for be in community with you!

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