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Lori Bagley's avatar

This article is beautiful. Thank you for putting into words what so many of us seem to experience in finding spirit and God in nature. I appreciate the wonderful quotes as well and will save this article to read again and again.

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Cynthia Winward's avatar

Thank you Blakelee for this heartfelt vulnerable message. Father Richard and also Barbara Brown Taylor have spoken about panentheism—that god is in all things.

I’ve been thinking about that as I’m in Hawaii this week and have been meditating on the beach. I feel god in the waves. In the turquoise water. In the wind in the palm trees. And you too find god out in our gorgeous Utah mountains. We’re already at the party, right?

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Rebecca Bigelow's avatar

Blakelee, thank you for putting your thoughts into these beautiful words! I truly believe that God is within us. We just need to get out of our own way to feel that connection. For me "God" is a conventional, placeholder word to describe this common speck of stardust or divinity we all have within us.

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Natalie Call's avatar

Blakelee, thank you for your deep and beautiful words. In reading your experience I am finding shreds of hope that I will start to encounter God more in similar ways and places. The weight of the “dark night of the soul” is so much, and I wish I could be at the end of it. I am finding myself needing to choose to be open to faith and God. It came so naturally to me (even during the first 5 or so years of my deconstruction) before, that to come to a time in my life where I have completely questioned my ideas of God and life, it’s so comforting to learn from your striving. Thank you ❤️

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Scott Jones's avatar

Much respect for Richard Rohr and the quotes you shared. But I have noticed I have found myself quoting you with my daughters. And that's a wonderful thing. Plus this -- "This woman is lamenting the fact that she cannot worship God in the place she has been told is THE ONLY PLACE to worship. She is literally banned from the temple. She believes she has been exiled from God." so wonderfully described my relationship with our temples. I could never find peace in who is excluded. And those thoughts consumed my participation for many years. (And I will be thinking of your hike the next time I wince at climbing our stairs.)

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